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Written by
Bonnie Killip
Published on
December 21, 2020

I sat motionless

in the final moments of the summer sun's glow

and watched

one tiny person after another

paddle,

stand,

glide along a wave

paddle,

stand,

glide along a wave,

paddle,

stand,

glide along a wave.


I never felt more alone.


I never felt more disconnected.

I thought how silly and pointless

it all seemed.


My board lifeless and

dry

beside me on the sand.

I thought of all those times I had fought

and screamed

and refused that tube

down my nose and into my stomach

and I thought about how

right now,

given the option

I may just take it.

With my whole heart I hope you found this poem useful and inspiring.

Become Great. Live Great.

Bonnie.

Bonnie Killip
Eating Disorder Recovery Consultant at Fuelling Success
Bonnie Killip is an Accredited Practising Dietitian and Clinical Hypnotherapist specialising in eating disorder recovery. With lived experience of long-term eating disorder struggles and years of professional training, Bonnie brings a unique perspective to her work, blending nutrition understanding with subconscious pattern work to support deeper, lasting change. Through her practice, she helps people move beyond restrictive patterns, build trust with food and their body, and create a life that feels meaningful and sustainable. Bonnie is passionate about empowering others with practical tools grounded in compassion and evidence-informed care.
Become Great. Live Great.

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