Not so long ago I had someone who was significant in my life for a time say that he was happy for the time we got to spend together and that he was grateful we were there for one another through that time (I believe his exact words were “you are an absolute ray of sunshine and I’m glad we played a part in each other’s path to self re-discovery” – just so you can identify yourself if you’re reading this).
They were the most beautiful words because they were true.
His honest and simple statement changed everything.
I had this epiphany that I didn’t need to hold on to him forever in order to show and prove that I cared.
We didn’t need to be together for a lifetime in order for him to feel and to know that I cared.
We didn’t need to be together for a lifetime in order for it to have been a meaningful connection.
I could let it go and it be no less beautiful because it had come to an end.
Whereas before he’d said this, I’d been feeling guilt coupled with an underlying sense of failure.
Guilt that I hadn’t loved him back more.
Failure that I hadn’t persisted and that I’d given up on something when there was nothing particularly wrong at all.
With his wise words I was set free.
Not only free of that one relationship but free of the need to hold on as a means of showing I care, ever.
Free to fully appreciate all the relationships of my life for what they were in all their perfect impermanent imperfection and happy to know there will be other amazing temporary connections in my future to come.
Which is why now, during this time where a lot of us are socially distancing from others and perhaps missing those we love or those we’ve loved more than usual, I want to share with you 3 people who have recently tugged on my heart strings in moments of quietly missing.
Perhaps as you read you can think of some of those people who’ve come and gone from your life and left their little piece of wisdom or imparted strength to you in some way for your having known them…
3 People Who’ve Come and Gone from My World
- My Bestfriend
I miss racing around to visit you in every spare second, I had.
I miss singing ukulele duets with you.
I miss dancing with you.
I miss your way ruder than mine sense of humour.
I miss you playing with my hair.
I miss your morning texts and your interest in my love life.
I miss the feeling of trust I had in you.
I miss you.
2. His Son
I miss your big eyes looking up at me and your tiny hand reaching for mine.
I miss the way you said my name.
I miss you snuggling into me at night.
I miss searching for bae-cat with you.
I miss running from the waves with you.
I miss playing in the sprinkler with you.
I miss the way your smile squinted your eyes to nothingness and enveloped your entire face.
I miss you.
3. My First Boyfriends Dad
I miss talking about the weather with you.
I miss talking about what fruit was in season, what was growing bad and well in the garden, when we planned to do the next honey extract and how the ducks were going.
I miss fixing my bike with you.
I miss working on the cars with you.
I miss being involved with all the little projects you had going on.
I miss the practicalities of doing stuff and the easy, no agenda conversation.
I miss your enthusiasm for food.
I miss you.
Goodbye
There you have it 3 people (4 to be precise and there were many more) I thought about in the moments I drifted in and out of reality during those days I spent in sickness.
3 people I now miss in a whole new way.
In a way of complete and utter respect and acceptance for the time we spent together, the perfect role they played in my life and I in theirs but most of all appreciation for who they were, who they are and who they will grow and shift and change to be in their futures:
I wish them all well, I love them all unconditionally and thank them for being a part of my life while at the same time releasing them forever at peace with the knowledge that their time in my life has come and gone.
With My Whole Heart I Hope You Found This Information Useful & Inspiring.
Become Great. Live Great.
Bonnie.
