I remember the fear as I sat in the waiting room of the doctors surgery. My hand shook as I signed the new patient forms and
I was presented with the concept of the “healthy self” and the “eating disorder self” early on in my treatment for anorexia nervosa. I remember
I got out of the shower and dried the water from my skin, gently, deliberately, kindly. I darkened my eyelashes with mascara, slowly put on
Refeeding syndrome, most likely yet another one of the many horrible things I’d be blissfully oblivious to the existence of, let alone the experience of,
As I sit here and reflect on my recovery from anorexia nervosa it’s impossible to pinpoint a time where things changed. It’s equally impossible to
“I’m not good enough” I sit and listen to this sentence spoken nonchalantly from the lips of yet another beautiful, intelligent, confused woman living a
One common finding in the bloodwork of people in recovery from anorexia nervosa is high levels of homocysteine. If you have a quick google search
It seems absolutely bizarre that weekly blood tests were once a normal part of my life (for such a long time!) It seems so strange
There’s no denying that the current treatment offered to people with eating disorders is far from foolproof. The success rates in terms of the number
Last night I dreamt you were standing, just out of reach. Which was not so different from real life. Every time I put my hands
I remember lying in the hospital bed during my last medical admission scared, angry and alone but most of all exhausted. Mentally, physically and spiritually
Following on from last week’s blog which was my answers to 3 questions people in recovery from eating disorders often ask me about my experience
For the past couple of years, I’ve been a part of a recovered speaker program with Eating Disorders Queensland (EDQ). EDQ is an incredible not
It’s well known that many people attempt dieting at some point, often many points, throughout their lives. Knowing this an interesting question arises “if dieting
It was only a few years ago that I discovered stiving for perfectionism wasn’t actually a helpful or healthful use of time and energy. But
Can I share with you quickly something that’s a little embarrassing, something that makes me cringe to look back on? When I was living with
For the most part these days recovery, recovered anything to do with all that isn’t on my mind. For the most part I’m not thinking
The effects starvation and malnutrition have on the human body are profound, far reaching and given enough time irreversible and ultimately fatal. It’s interesting
I want to talk about something that’s come up for me multiple times recently, both in my personal life and professional life (and if I
Do you have a child (of any age) you suspect may be developing or living with an eating disorder? Do you often find yourself uncertain
Sometimes people ask me why I think I developed anorexia nervosa and how it is possible to have that degree of willpower to not eat
Professor Arthur Crisp said it best when he said – “saying you understand anorexia because you’ve dieted a few times is like saying you know
There were a lot of things I was told were going to happen during recovery. Actually, that’s an outright lie. I wish there were a
The list of things I gave a shot in the hopes that by doing them it would bring me closer to recovery from anorexia nervosa
Have you ever dismissed something as probably just the “placebo effect?” It’s only relatively recently that my understanding of the placebo effect has shifted from
When I was sick with anorexia nervosa there seemed to be nothing people could say that was right. Even compliments or things said with the
This morning I had an epiphany! I used to have a lot of these, and I feel like lately they haven’t been happening nearly as
A couple of weeks ago I shared a short blog on 3 Things I Miss About Anorexia so today I wanted to balance it out
I wish I could tell you in a way you could understand just how incredible it feels to get home from work, sit on the
Yes, you read that correctly. As terrible as living with anorexia nervosa was there were parts of it that were not all bad. I am
A couple of weeks ago I had the honour of being a part of delivering an eating disorders training day for doctors on the General
Welcome to the wild side. If you thought living with the eating disorder was hard and you’re feeling fed up, exhausted and ready for recovery
Life can change in an instant and it can also change imperceptibly slowly so much so that at the time you don’t even know it
The use of clinical hypnotherapy and principles from the field of clinical hypnotherapy are becoming increasingly widely used in health care and psychology. This is
You could say living with anorexia for almost 15 years opened my eyes to a thing or two about what it means to be stuck,
It is widely accepted that what we eat has a large impact on our physical health. There’s not many of us would argue otherwise. However,
When I initially sat down to write this blog it was titled “3 Reasons I Didn’t Recover Earlier”. Pretty quickly those 3 reasons became 5
Entry 1. I hear and I forget, I see and I remember, I do and I understand. ~ Confucius Entry 2. Immediately after getting back
As I sit here in my gorgeous little office reflecting on the life, I lived with anorexia nervosa it seems absolutely absurd that I could
2012 Entry 1. And just like that I’d one it. Again. You might think it ludicrous to claim ignorance of what was happening, and I